My mouth has a tendency to get me into trouble. Because of my social anxiety, i have a tendency to tune my filter on the side of “yikes” and sometimes I forget I even have a filter….good times, good times…..
Needless to say, I am regularly having inappropriate outbursts in public.
I’ve been working on a list of qualities I like about myself as an exercise in regaining my confidence of only a year ago. I’ve discovered it’s not easy to say nice things about yourself, which is crazy ‘cos it’s so easy to say nice things about others.
As a matter of taking my “issues” in hand, I decided that instead of guessing what people find disagreeable about me, I would ask. After all, haven’t I identified that it’s the guesswork that makes the anxiety so much worse?
Strangely, I’ve decided that as much as I don’t like those inappropriate outbursts in public, it is also part of my charm! People appreciate the honesty they receive in those moments, even if they are honest to a fault. Frankly, I am too honest, if there is such a thing. Honest is good, rude is bad. Those outbursts are most often me forgetting to frame my thoughts in a way that presents my honesty “nicely”. Much like Sheldon Cooper (Big Bang Theory). Only, I know I’ve offended and often also understand how. Thus my mortification at myself in any public situation. 🙂
So, now, it’s about accepting that aspect of myself, I guess. It will take time, but I think I’ll get there! (I think I can, I think I can, I think I can!) In the meantime, at least I’ve got one thing on my list!